Okay so I should be in bed sleeping right now - I told Chris I would be in just a minute but instead here I am.
Every night when I put Zander to bed we read some stories and then talk. While tonight we were talking about auntie Melissa (were your ears burning Melissa?) and how she has a baby in her tummy and how Aidan is going to get a brother or a sister - by the way Zander thinks he should get a sister so Aidan is just like him:) So I asked Zander if he wanted another sister or a little brother and he explained to me that he doesn't need a little sister because he already has one and madison doesn't need a brother because she already has one, so as he told me "we are good". Logic from a 3 year old - Chris will be happy to hear it.
So I have experienced a weekend I hope to never experience again - no offense Michelle you were the only good part about it:) I decided to take my first longish road trip alone with the kids to visit Michelle in Regina. Sounds like a good idea, but not so good if the first night there one of the kids gets a horrible, horrible flu. So that was thursday night and tonight is monday night and Zander is still fighting it - it seems like on average the flu is lasting around a week. What a horrible thing to watch your kid countlessly throw up - I can't imagine how mothers of kids with cancer or other diseases do it. It's one thing when Chris gets sick (which he did also at home by the way) I got to admit I don't have all that much sympathy for him, when I think about the morning sickness and labor that I went through I kind of just tell him to suck it up. But it's another thing to hold your child in your arms and know there is nothing you can do to stop it. Zander was feeling kind of better today but he is afraid to eat now b/c what if he throws up again. So I'm praying for a better day tomorrow and hopefully he will be back to his annoying self where he wants to constantly be running around and wrecking the house - I'll take mess anyday to a kid laying there:)I'm not sure how many times I got thrown up on this weekend, it must be the love a parent has for their children to allow us to go through that. I think of all the times I was sick as a child and how many times my parents held the bucket for me and I think that I need to thank my parents - I had no idea what some of the things they do for us without complaint or thoughts of a thank-you.
On a brighter note Madison got to go for a ride in the tractor the other day - and man did she love it! She had a fit when Chris put her back into the vehicle and then back at the farm she wouldn't take her jacket off until we went back. I think I have another Zander on my hands:)

My little farmer

So seeding has officially began. Today we spent our first day of the season out at the farm. And Zander loved it, infact he didn't even come home with me!:) Finally at 8 o'clock I told him we had to leave (Madison was quite grumpy and needed to go to sleep) when Chris came in to say they were moving tractors and filling up for tomorrow and Zander pleaded with me to stay. So on went the coveralls again (over the freshly washed little boy and the pj's) and back out farming he went. I was lucky to get a quick hug and kiss before he was off happy as can be. I believe I have a mini Chris on my hands - HELP! Zander rode in the tractor today with Chris, which basically means that once he eats all of Chris' food he falls asleep in the tractor for a couple hours and wakes up happy as can be, and for anyone who knows Zander knows that he doesn't wake up well after a nap, but in the tractor he does (I guess I just need to drive a tractor every afternoon and then I'd be fine). So once I picked him up to feed him supper he informed me that "me and daddy were planting ketchup!" (they were actually planting mustarde but he got a little confused with the condiments, honest mistake and so cute)
Zander isnt' the only one who loves the farm. Little miss Madison was quite ticked that she wasn't allowed out of her carseat to go on the tractor with daddy. and then once we took supper to papa while she was trying to undo her straps to get out to the field to him! I think I have 2 farmers on my hands! The only thing Madison didn't like about the farm this time was Nixon. she was fine if she was looking out the window at him but as soon as she was outside and he came anywhere close she was screaming! (oh just in case anyone doesn't know Nixon is a chocolate lab, not a person!)
I have to admit though I myself am torn. Once we're at the farm everything seems so peaceful and the kids love it so much that I myself am lulled into loving it. It's the getting ready and making sure I have everything that's the pain in the butt. But I can understand the draw to farming, it's a nice lifestyle. I guess maybe God had a plan in mind when he was having me fall in love with a farmer:)
On a sadder note I am without camera. And for me that is a very scary, sad thing - I love my camera and am almost daily taking pictures. And I totally missed getting a picture of Zanders face when he was heading towards the tractor, skipping through the stuble, stuborn as can be, not letting Chris carry him. Memories!

May 12, 2010

Wow May already. Zander had his first soccer practice tonight. I'm so proud of my little guy, he did awesome kicking the ball around the cones and running after the ball. He didn't even make it out of rosetown before falling asleep!
One quote I try to live my life by is to "never have regrets" but really how can anyone really ever have no regrets? everyone must regret something in their life. a new saying i've come to like is "life is for making mistakes and death is for wishing you made more" I feel I've made my fair share of mistakes in life and as a mother I'm constantly wondering if any of the mistakes I've made are going to affect my children. I'm sure this all sounds like silly babble to anyone reading it. but lately I feel like I'm constantly afraid of what could happen and I hate thinking "what if" It's scary thinking about the world that your kids are growing up in. I'm sure every mom can relate to that.
Okay enough of my incoherent babblings. Madison is starting to talk quite well - she has a couple words that she can really well and she is getting better at repeating you when you tell her to say something. Her new word for today is "minnie", she had minnie mouse on her shirt. I have found I have to really watch her when we go outside because she likes to see how many rocks she can put into her mouth! crazy girl!
Thankfully we've been having nicer weather lately so hopefully Chris can start seeding tomorrow. It's amazing how I've come to dread seeding and harvest and pray for it to be over when Chris loves it. How two opposite people can love one another!
Madison was dedicated on sunday and it was so wonderful to have so many members of our families come - she is a much loved little girl! And very much a girly girl - she now loves getting her hair done into pigtails and stands at the sink waiting for me in the morning. she still is obessed with babies, real and doll!
Anyway I better get to sleep while both kids are in their own beds! good night everyone!